I think the weakness aspect is that I felt so distant and I had to be at odds with her in order to get there. It feels like backtracking in a way. We continue to communicate and make jokes and laugh. I've stopped the emotional stuff.
Things that stuck with me were her saying -I haven't had time to miss you because I've been so mad -i dont need money. I am happy with someone who has nothing and is poor. (She's had means her entire life) -I am so happy with OM. Later x2: I am just content -when I said I will keep an open heart and mind she said she understands and did not shut it down. -her apology to me and the kids
And yes my work schedule has always been a topic of my internal conflict. Regarding the nurses, we openly talked about this during the M. It probably doesn't help that I am dating one now. BUT it is easy to spot gold diggers and I do not want any part of that. I have noted my mistakes and openly admitted those to W the other night.
