Something is going on with the men of this board this week! You, Tad and even SBJ are beating yourself up for being "weak" when your heart feels love for your W.
Feeling love for your W is good and true!
I would have no expectations of her either, but I dream of my H saying those things, even in cycles of boomerangs.
I think it shows how confused she is.
And I assure you that her relationship is not going to last. That relationship is built on lies and other sorts of sand. It will crumble at some point.
It's just a question of your being willing to keep your heart open when that day comes.
It could be another long while. You might not want to wait.
I encourage you to keep being kind to her and to keep a corner of your heart open.
As a woman, I can imagine some of how she feels. It sounds like you do work a lot and, if you are facing the insecurities of midlife, it could be very difficult to be married to a powerful and accomplished doctor who openly admits that in his work, women are constantly throwing themselves at him. It stung my heart even to read that as someone who doesn't really know you!
Her MLC has nothing to do with you. But her feeling neglected during your M could be valid. It's something to explore and reflect on as you work on yourself, whether you end up married to someone else or her one day. Just my thought as a woman. My H is clearly out of his mind and is wicked to me. But I still spent a lot of time evaluating the mistakes I made and I hope I can be a better wife/person one day.
And by the way, thank you for the very kind words you wrote to me. It really meant so much to me that you valued my perspective.
I believe I will see the bounty of the Lord in the land of the living. Wait for the Lord with courage. Be stouthearted, and wait for the Lord.
