This. This is the lesson I learned before I founde DB, the hard way. Putting too much weight on any single interaction can cause you more pain than necessary, for an interaction that will probably be forgotten about in a day or a week.
Also, I wouldn't put too much pressure on yourself for when the BD happens. In all honesty it is a good thing to assume it will happen, you can prepare yourself mentally for when the dam breaks. Also, because it will give you the opportunity to assert yourself, remain calm, validate, and if you wish state that you also have not been happy with the way that things are going. IMO of course.
Sometimes I just want to rip off the Band-Aid. But yeah I agree, I have to stay calm and stay the course. The BD will happen and with more time I will be more prepared. I went from having maybe 10% hope that MC would offer an opportunity to save things, to now feeling it is <0.1%. But I still feel there is a chance, and that is what is so painful and hurtful. It is soul-sucking and heart-breaking to see this woman I love just drift away with anger and resentment, especially when I feel although I did some things wrong, I am on the right path.
