Unchien I sincerely appreciate those words. You're absolutely right. I have never been the kind of man I want to be, and my M has never been interdependent, but codependent.

I know ultimately I will be ok and actually better than ok. But I need to start realizing that now.

I feel great physically, I have fears of the kids being very hurt (ours are the same ages BTW).

It's really a matter of me GAL - and really owning that life and NOT worrying about she's doing.

Praying for you my friend.

H46
W38
M12
T15
D8,S7,S5

11/12/17 "I don't want to be married like this" A began
7/12/18 Confessed A
10/1/19 EA still happening with 2
4/23/19 "I want a D, but I want to stay until I find a job"