Thanks Ginger1 and Brubeck.

I've always had a tendency to be hard on myself. As for being happier if I hadn't gone....not sure. I'm glad I went for my son. Just wish the whole thing wouldn't have bothered me so much. Again, I think a lot of it had to do with it being a family setting.

As for XW, I suppose I will always love her to some extent. Loving her though is what makes all of this so difficult.

I'm doing better as time goes on. I will see her again at my son's concert on May 17th.

Tad

Currently:
M 57 XW 58
Sons 39,34,32,30

The Sitch:
Married 26 years
EA w/ OM 9/10
Bomb 10/10 (5 weeks after 25th anniversary)
Sep 12/10
She wants D 1/11
W files 5/11
D final 10/11
XW marries OM 6/13