Thanks for that advice. I am starting to feel a little detached myself after he told me this morning that I was so bad to him all these years. I suddenly thought why would he want to be married to me, really. I also realized that he does need to figure his own stuff out away from me. I highly doubt he will do the soul searching I am doing right now. But I am done with controlling my spouse. I am learning to accept him for who he is and not who I want him to be. I have been projecting on him AND taking all his good qualities for granted. That feels terrible to admit.
I don't want to make him mad with the cameras. I don't know how to approach that topic except to accept that it's his house and if I want to talk about the divorce or him, I better do it elsewhere.
