You have a lot to work on with yourself. I would suggest reading No More Mr. Nice Guy. Even though it says Mr. Nice Guy, it seems like it may apply to you.

Just understand, you cannot nice him back or mean him back. Focus on yourself. Focus on those controlling behaviors and 180 everything that you were doing that was pushing him away.

M:16
T:21
H(me) 38
WW: 38
S11 D16 D19
Red Flags of A: March 2018
ILYBNILWY: August 4, 2018
Moved out of MBR: September 24, 2018
BD/Confirmation of A: October 31, 2018
D Filed: March 27, 2019