Confusion is my middle name...

[Coly23]

Job, AP, Roist. Thank tou all so much for your comments.

Job - D has a back up plan if she doesn't get in this year and will try again next year. The degree she wants to take is very competitive and her age is going against her a little too. Thank you for reminding me not to have expectations! As you know it has always been my downfall in the past!

AP - it did cross my mind that it could just be the time of the year. I guess only time will tell. D and I are doing okay just getting on with our lives. We have even booked another holiday for a couple of months time, which we are very excited about!

Roist - thanks for reminding me that I need patience and that this will take a very long time if H is in fact reconnecting. It is very difficult to keep myself from getting angry or annoyed when he stops communicating after a period of lots of contact. I nearly fired off an angry text to him the other day but stopped myself, which I am glad about! I do feel H is much more comfortable with me than he used to be but I am so afraid of messing things up when I am with him. As you have all three alluded to or said right out, I must keep my expectations low and not think that we are reconnecting but I guess just enjoy the times when he us with us.

I will let you all know how tomorrow goes. I am nervous to spend four and a half hours with him on my own!

Happy Wednesday!! Xx