You mention that you are in limbo, and that it is you that is keeping yourself there. Sometimes it can be hard to see the truth when we have been hurt. Do you not trust him or do you not trust yourself? The answer is somewhere but may not be visible yet. I am going to look at your sitch ...
Thank you for asking this, Blu. It chimes with something that came up in my IC yesterday and which has left me feeling really sad. A good sad, I think, because it is about accepting reality. I don't think I trust myself. Not my judgement of this situation, not my ability to forgive and love and manage my own hurt feelings, not my capacity to go ahead and pull the plug and move on if that's what is best for me and my children, and not my capacity to R with a man who will never be perfect. You've helped me see where I am, and that's progress - even if I don't much like where I am right now.
