I'll admit this threw me for a loop. I had distanced myself so far from her. She (at least for about a week) has been the person she was 5 years ago. She admitted fault, had clarity, didn't defend herself when attacked/blamed and then told me she loved me.....as a person but fell out of love with me long ago. We openly talked about sex, relationships, etc... without getting too emotional. She finally apologized for what she did and admitted she was an irrational monster. Said OM has her heart and is there emotionally for her, something she didnt feel with me because I was working so much. Shes never done it on her own and that brings her great fear. I told her I would keep an open door, but would take a firm plan on her part of she wanted to come back. It is nuts how these feelings come back with so much force.
