REALLY struggling tonight as there seems to be no end in sight. Wife is going along with the DBs to some degree. Doesn't mind me doing my own thing. She temperature checks ALOT, asking if I'm ok, or maybe why my answers are so short.

Resentment is creeping in and all the while I miss her to death. I miss my friend, my partner.

Lonely AF but still maintaining the integrity as if my kids were watching my every move (which they are).

Not sure what to do about certain things: W wants to spend quite a bit of weekends together as a family - going places, going to church, even talked about going to a Texas Rangers game. Even then talked about a trip to California this summer all of us to see family WTF

H46
W38
M12
T15
D8,S7,S5

11/12/17 "I don't want to be married like this" A began
7/12/18 Confessed A
10/1/19 EA still happening with 2
4/23/19 "I want a D, but I want to stay until I find a job"