It's good to read that you are looking at things more rationally. Many here will tell you that the use of words like "Maybe" and "probably" and "I think" is plan B cake eating stuff and they have a point. I remember a long time ago I wrote the words "let him eat cake, I will be sitting here enjoying my picnic".
You are not the same Dilly who joined a few months ago. Your posts are no longer about trying to understand your H or trying to work out what version of you would best bring him back - they are now just about becoming the best version of you.
I read something the other day which really resonated with me and I think it is probably fitting for many of us here.
"Be careful what you tolerate. You are teaching people how to treat you".
