Met with W for about 3 hours last night. I put kids to bed at her house and then we had some wine. This is how it went
She admitted "situational" depression. But also talked about how bad her childhood was. She packed many belongings over the weekend and said she hit rock bottom. She saw a Facebook pic of our daughter from 4 years ago and lost control at work she admitted alienating herself from family and it cut deep, especially since they think i walk on water.
I told her she became a monster and impossible to deal with. She owned up to it and knows she will need more counseling. She wants me as a friend and I was hesitant to answer. She knows this will take a long time to heal from
She knows she is financially ruined and did not ask me for any help. Shes had friends help her with moving expenses.
We talked about moving on and she is still head over heels for OM. Saying he doesn't have money but quit doing drugs, got a job and fills her emotional needs. He has helped her emotionally through this journey and feels most men would have run away by this point. Marriage/moving in together is not on the table at this point. She is happy for me as well
We embraced, held hands and shared many tears. We almost kissed but she pulled back. She apologized for break up of the M and I admitted my part as well. She hasn't had time to miss me because of how volatile it has been, but has missed some things up to this point. She feels bad for the kids and lost it when we talked about them.
It seemed the most genuine talk we've had in over a year. She wants to continue talks and told me she wants me to be there for her emotionally. I am conflicted.
