You are going to go through the stages of abandonment ober and over again. Its a rollercoaster of emotions. The more you detach and focus on yourself, the less they will impact you. The rollercoaster of emptions is fleeting. But how fast you get off that rollercoaster depends solely on how much you focus and work on yourself.

I am reading The Journey from Abandonment to Healing. Its a great book. It talks about the stages you are going through, how to recognize them and get through them. There is a nice list of books to read on here. I dont have the link. Maybe someone can post it. I have read many of the books. They help tremendously. I suggest you do the same.

M:16
T:21
H(me) 38
WW: 38
S11 D16 D19
Red Flags of A: March 2018
ILYBNILWY: August 4, 2018
Moved out of MBR: September 24, 2018
BD/Confirmation of A: October 31, 2018
D Filed: March 27, 2019