I am trying. I don't always succeed, but I fail much less than I use to .
Just got back from three days in Brighton with the girls. We had a really good time. We walked along the sea front, played the arcade games, ate ice cream, watched a live comedy (kids) show, walked around a food fair and took a trip on the i360. There was lots of spontaneous laughter. Plus, the energy and vibrancy of Brighton reminds me a lot of Bondi or Manly so feels very familiar.
We stayed one night in a hotel and one night with a girlfriend. She threw her H a few days before christmas, and whilst it's not a case of good girl gone bad, she is certainly miles ahead of me in the 'detaching' thing. I know others may disagree, but I do think having a [censored] of a W/H makes the detaching thing easier. My H calls his kids every day. I hear him trying to painfully coax conversation out of a 9 and 12 year old, which isn't easy, but he perseveres. He goes to every netball, football and school event he can. He sees them every day he can. He drives 20 mins over here in morning just to take them to school. In the last month he has just taken them to legoland for three days and I heard him say just now to D12 that he is taking them to theme park for another two days at the end of the month (he has taken a week off work whilst they're on half term). He might be a flawed human, he might be a [censored] of a H, but he is a good father. I think I would rather that he is a good father to his children, and have to put up with this uncertainty, then he be a complete [censored] and I be able to move on. Anyway, I think AS post on his half brother and spending three days with a girlfriend whose H is a [censored] has made me grateful that my kids have two parents that love them very very much.
When I got back today, I noticed some packages on the island in the kitchen that must have come whilst I was away. I text H to see if he had been by the house whilst I was away. He replied that yes, he had taken the back door key saturday when he came to visit the girls. He obvs had enough foresight to pocket the back door key when he was here, but he could have not moved the packages at all, and I would never have been the wiser. I was planning to give him one of the keys to the front (we have two locks so if I give him one, he will have to tell me when he is coming over so that I leave the other one unlocked) so may ask for the back door key back then.
Also, MIL text me whilst I was away to ask if she could take D12 to a book signing after her next counselling session. I replied that I would prefer her to come home (it will be the first session on her own) as I think it is best that either I or her dad is with her after. I don't know how she will be after. It could be nothing, or she could be really stressed out. My plan is to get takeway and sit with her to watch one of her programs or play board games with her and D9. Nothing major. Just a quiet night in. That way she is in the comfort of her own home, there is no rushing about, and we are there if she needs us. I know this probably didn't go down well with MIL but I did have D12's interest at heart. I did end the text exchange with "Thanks for understanding. Enjoy the rest of your weekend. X".
No Yoga for three days but lots of GALg with kids and lots of really good food. Brighton has really good food.
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