Thanks for the reply, Blu. I ask about regret because I think that's what is holding me back from trusting and having faith - faith that H means what he says, and faith that I will be okay even if I try to R with him and it doesn't work out. I don't want to regret my decision. Part of what keeps me in limbo is myself. I could pull the plug or leap into R with him and I do neither, even though I hate limbo, because of that fear. It is interesting that even though things are difficult and still a work in progress, you don't regret your decision. It helps me to hope.