So just scrolling through FB before bedtime, and I stumble upon a post from a friend of mine. As I am about to make a comment, I see that my ex has commented on the picture already (I have unfriended her for my own sanity), and curiosity got the better of me so....
I went to her page, and saw that she had befriended several family members of OMs. I then realized that, the fact that she has been introduced to them, the fact that we are splitting up our assets tomorrow, and the fact that she has been generally happy ever since BD is probably a sign that this is the right thing after all.
I felt uncomfortable, and saw what should had been my future pass by my eyes on that screen, but that lasted very briefly. I think my only real concern about all of this is, that I dont like the OM because of the way all this panned out, and him being around my kids really gets to me (I know thats nothing I can change, but I feel it none the less). And also the fact that my kids are so small, and have to deal with new step siblings and step grandparents and what not all of a sudden. I think they are most likely nice people, its not about that - Its more like the insane amount of stress it puts on my little humans most likely.
I have dropped the rope, and I understand that what we were, is no longer, and she has chosen a new life for herself. I say, live it and be happy - I just can't but help journaling a bit about my emotions in all of this, mostly on behalf of my kids and the concerns I have for them.
Hope it makes sense.
BD: Wife says "its over" 11th august 2018. EA: June 2018 PA: August 2018 - ongoing Status: Taking turns 7 days a week to be in the house w. kids WW: no regrets, seems happy with leaving.
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