ha, you couldn't be harsh if you tried! I'm not angry, really not. I feel sad and sorry for him. He certainly is broken, and I need to just back off and let him fix himself if he can. If he can't, it really is his loss. I will be ok no matter what, I have to keep coming back to that. Somewhere along the way I got my hopes up that he was capable of change, but if he's gone backwards then that's his choice. I'm not settling for crumbs any more, I deserve better than that. And no, he's not being malicious, he's suffering somehow and I'm bearing the brunt of the blame for it. His best is pathetic, honestly.
