When I back away from it I'm not even sure I want her anymore. I'll never be able to forget this, and I'll never be able to have children with her.
You are hurting right now from her actions last night. And yes, we've all been there and it does hurt to hear the woman you've been intimate with say she doesn't want to be touched by you, or naked around you. One of the signs of problems preBD in my sitch was my W was going into the master bathroom, closing and locking the door, to undress and change clothes. It was awful.
Do not make decisions when emotional. I would even tell you, though I agree with the decision, to hold off on the killing of the vacation. Make that decision based on insight and forethought, not on emotion.
M(53), W(54),D(19) M-23, T-25 Bomb Drop - Dec.23, 2017 Ring and Piecing since March 2018
