There´s no need of that. Focus on yourself. Let her be whatever she wants. It´s counterintuitive now. You give space if you want to come closer. Keep that GAL. Get into amoafwl.
oops, I think based on this latest interaction you need to kill the trip. Yes you two will be going as friends. I am so afraid you will go, have an awesome, but platonic, time, and then she will come home and BD#2 you. As I said, I've seen it several times before including currently here a couple of times.
Likely, she is going to go on vacation as "working on the relationship", and then use it as an excuse later. "We tried everything! We even went on vacation together."
As far as the itchy trigger finger. Remember, if you do not give this enough time you will look back with regrets. "If only I had given her a couple more months." Etc.
Earn your way out. GAL. 180. Detach. Become the best oops you can be. Give her space. Let her go to get her back. But give her time to deal with her own crap. When the time comes to cut bait you'll know without a doubt.
M(53), W(54),D(19) M-23, T-25 Bomb Drop - Dec.23, 2017 Ring and Piecing since March 2018
When I back away from it I'm not even sure I want her anymore. I'll never be able to forget this, and I'll never be able to have children with her.
You are hurting right now from her actions last night. And yes, we've all been there and it does hurt to hear the woman you've been intimate with say she doesn't want to be touched by you, or naked around you. One of the signs of problems preBD in my sitch was my W was going into the master bathroom, closing and locking the door, to undress and change clothes. It was awful.
Do not make decisions when emotional. I would even tell you, though I agree with the decision, to hold off on the killing of the vacation. Make that decision based on insight and forethought, not on emotion.
M(53), W(54),D(19) M-23, T-25 Bomb Drop - Dec.23, 2017 Ring and Piecing since March 2018