180 Counterproductive?

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Weird night. She had IC yesterday and was home super late and said she "went for a walk" at the place where I think OM was running or runs frequently, though it is on the way. She mentioned that IC said it was fine if I come to the next session to see what's up. I said I'd think about it. She said I was looking good, I was over it so I made a joke that I'd do well on Tinder.

In my half asleep state last night I rolled over and cuddled her a little (she's done this to me a few times now, so I guess it seemed okay for me to do subconsciously). She'd also been near me in bed all night. Anyways she complained that she was "uncomfortable" because I might get near her boobs with my hands, so I rolled off and kinda laughed. She asked why I was laughing and I just said "just funny" went back to sleep. Probably looked butthurt but I was laughing because this is all just so obvious to me. She got up to pee and I think send a working from home email in a huff. Funny, OM works from home today too.

I've got a really itchy trigger finger on just telling her I'm out. I know they say a year, but do I really want this? This is another clear sign of "friend zone" and that I should kill the trip, even if it means I look wishy-washy but maybe I don't even care at this point. My wife has a boyfriend! I can find a woman that *doesnt* cheat!

But assuming I dont pull the trigger my problem here is committing to DB with the full pull away vs committing to things like you see in MMSLP.

I did read MMSLP, most of DR, and another book recently. I just don't even know what to believe to be honest.