I think I'm just in a selfish and self-pitying mood. He is certainly not flawless - not at all - but he's also suffering and I feel for him, but I also hate it when he's like this because he means he isn't available for me. I don't like being selfish like that, but there you go. I can add it to my list of things to work on. I feel self pitying because I want someone to be there for me, for someone to want me, and that isn't happening right now. Me and probably most others on this site. I think I just need a long walk and a coffee and then to get busy doing other things.
