4 years pieced and still a work in progress!

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I'm a complete rookie her Blue but... I would question whether you have actually forgiven him. You may trust him in certain ways and are confident that he wouldn't do it again <-- but if this is true and you still can't give him your heart.. then I don't think you've forgiven him. Forgiveness has a cost, that cost is paid by the forgiver and it is not easy, but when it is truly done, that is when you again allow yourself to be vulnerable with him.