UGGHHHH. I’m feeling frustrated and impatient. I realized I’ve been reading way too much into the fact that my H was talking very seriously about divorce a few weeks ago and then, since I 180ed and started leaving every time he comes around to visit our daughter, that has stopped. I guess I started thinking that it really meant something, that he must really be turning toward our marriage in some way, but unsurprisingly nothing is actually happening really. I made the yearbook for our daughters preschool class and copied him on the automated email to all the parents about it. As he left just now he mentioned that he should give me money for one and it triggered me and now I’m feeling pissed off and frustrated. I just feel so stuck. Of course I’m happy that the divorce talk and momentum came to a pause/stop, but I do not like being back in limbo. We are at a year separated now. I can’t [censored] believe I’m still in limbo.
