Not much going on here. I continue to work too much, but it keeps my brain busy. Still planning those few trips this summer, as well as my continuing education trips. Work is busy right now (never good when you work in the medical field).
I heard from a friend that she saw H's truck at the lawyers office today. I guess that can only mean he is moving forward with D. I have not heard from him at all since our last conversation and I am not surprised. He has his new dog now and I am pretty sure that he thinks life is so great. I know that day will come when he makes the decision to move forward because he really believes that once he is divorced he will be "happy." I doubt he will give me any kind of heads up that he filed. I really would like to say something to him that I know he was at the lawyers office, but I'm sure that will only make him mad.
I can only assume that he borrowed money from his friend, since he continues to rack up credit card debt. I have checked his credit recently and no new credit cards or loans that I can see, so that is why I can assume he borrowed money from his friend, and also because he said he didn't have the money to file and that was why he wanted us to file without lawyers. I have not contacted a lawyer yet.....I will wait and see when I receive papers.
I don't have a good feeling about all of this though. He is so in debt and is not busy at his work right now, and that means no money is coming in as he works fee for service. I know he is struggling financially and that is probably giving him more motivation to file because he is under the impression he will be getting a decent amount of money.
It is a pretty hard pill to swallow knowing that I paid for everything during our marriage and he is the one who is unfaithful, then he goes and spends money like crazy, goes into debt and in the end I will have to give him my hard earned money. He contributed NOTHING to any sort of savings account. SO FRUSTRATING!!!!
I know in my heart and my head that he is still suffering and he just wants to do whatever he can to make himself feel better. He is wearing a mask to cover up his truths. One day those truths will come back to haunt him.
