I woke up suddenly at 3 a.m. last night, and immediate thoughts of H was on my mind. No dreams that I know of. I never really went back to sleep, because my mind would not shut off the thought of H…..what is he doing, if he’s planning to live with OW, how much is he even seeing her? On and on. Pi**ed off at the past. Etc. Etc.
I don’t really know what triggered it. I usually sleep very well, and if thoughts of H pop in my mind, they are mostly short-lived. Why now? Perhaps it’s because we’ve had some text messages back and forth about his plans with the kids on Friday, our D19 minor medical issue, medical insurance issue etc. A few of his responses were a bit snarky. Perhaps the single life is getting to him a bit. Who knows? But, I’m mad my sleep was ruined because of thoughts of H.
Well, another day in which to regroup. Pick up S21 today. He’ll be home for about 10 days. It’s going to be awesome to have both kiddos under my roof!
I’ve got a full GAL schedule coming up for the weekend. Perhaps I already posted it, but, Happy hour with 2 different groups that just happen to be getting together at the same place Friday night, Boot Camp Saturday a.m., Beach with friends Saturday afternoon – Sunday. And an afternoon Cinco-de-mayo party on Sunday. I feel a bit bad leaving the kids Saturday – Sunday, but I’m sure they will just enjoy their time at home. D19 continues to love on me all the time, and wants to bake artisan bread with me on Saturday and hang out with a puzzle before I head to the beach. Love it!
