I just submitted a big chunk of work, then opened a mini bottle of champagne. Celebrating the small wins is a 180 for me, I have a history of not celebrating, my family were terrible at celebrating and dh is awful at celebrating. So I am celebrating for MYSELF And I might not get up at 5am tomorrow since that's what I've been having to do for days to work on this stuff. So yay, celebration. I do need to clean the house though because I've been so focused on work I haven't had a chance to catch up.
Yes, the MIL is a perennial issue. Dh rarely sees her, I definitely won't. I thought it was kind to let her see the kids though, we have a long and fractured history partly due to her relationship with dh and partly due to her being a truly awful person who has behaved terribly towards her family and never once expressed regret. I feel sorry for her actually, she has no friends, her family don't want to see much of her and now her partner is kicking her out. Not a good place to be in your mid-70s but you reap what you sow in life.
IC today, we talked about friendships and distancing behaviour, he suggested I could rehearse new behaviours with my friends. But my friends wouldn't criticise me, or if they did it would be in a kind way, so I don't see how that will help much. I have been more assertive generally since BD. I feel the need to protect myself from previous behaviour where I would bend over backwards for other people to the detriment of me and my family. I don't do that any longer, I think long and hard before saying yes.
I have had some texts from a good friend who lives in the US and is over this way in June. We have arranged to meet up in Europe. She is one of the most enthusiastic people I know and a lot of fun to be with. I'm feeling excited just thinking about this trip, it's really something to look forward to. I might have arranged something loose with my parents too, so plenty of GAL stuff beyond the norm. I was looking at a map of Europe earlier and thinking of all the places I haven't been and would like to go to. Ideally I would like to explore with someone else, but if nobody is around then there's nothing stopping me once I have finished this work stuff off. It's so nice to feel excited by future plans, I would love dh to be involved but I know that he is super anxious about travel and would hate my spontaneous approach, I should make the most of him not being around
And I might not get up at 5am tomorrow since that's what I've been having to do for days to work on this stuff. So yay, celebration. I do need to clean the house though because I've been so focused on work I haven't had a chance to catch up. 