No more denial, time to get to work

[MRay]

Thanks Twofeet, I had decided I definitely would not be reaching out to her. I've actually decided I need to pull back further during drop off/pick up time as well. We get along like friends, and that's obviously not what I want. It's obvious to me that if she's ever single she'll reach out, but she is with OM at the moment and I don't want to be her friend on the side. Balancing that with being the best coparents we can be is going to be the challenge and focus moving forward.

I was actually in a very good place recently. It felt different than before. It wasn't that I didn't have feelings for STBXW, it was that I felt them but was at peace with where I was. Then yesterday I picked up the kids from school and while driving them home I ended up at the same intersection as her and OM in his car. It was like a kick in the nuts. I had a pretty emotional response for a couple minutes, but I calmed down pretty quickly and was able to move on with my day. I'm upset that seeing them like that had that kind of power over me, but honestly it was the first time I've seen them together like that. And I moved on pretty quickly, so I think that's a good sign.

On a side note I know I'm looking damn good. I took my kids to the park after that, and was talking to a couple moms there. Apparently they called their friend and tried to get her to come meet me, and then practically forced us to start a texting conversation. I was reluctant, but then they showed me her instagram. There's no way this woman needs help finding men to talk to! Apparently I make a good impression.