I wrote some time ago about backsliding. To me it is misnamed.
One cannot go forward without going backwards.
We all get triggers of anxiety and slip back. That is a sure sign of healing - IMHO. You are a peace enough to push back more of that veil of denial and see more and more of the true reality. You are healed enough to be able to allow more hurt and anxiety to surface and start to resolve those “feeling” as well. I’ve kind of been watching for this to be honest.
This backslide forward progress is awesome. Yeah, it hurts. And it feels terrible. And it means you are well enough to look to more within yourself. By the way, these moments don’t last as long, nor are they as debilitating as previous anxiety times.
I wonder what surfaced? Time will reveal whatever it is you are about to uncover. Be patient, forcing doesn’t help.
Keep shining man!
I am proud of you.
Now, you be proud of you.
DnJ
Feelings are fleeting. Be better, not bitter. Love the person, forgive the sin.
