A peaceful evening and morning so far. I've come a long way - I now enjoy my alone time, and spend it doing things that please me, instead of feeling abandoned and alone. Those feelings come and go sometimes - but they are much less frequent.
Went to bed early last night with an audiobook. I'm sleeping really well recently. Woke up early and did some meditating and then dealt with kids.
Dilly, you will be pleased to note that Eldest is now doing his own packed lunch without complaint. It's the tiny changes like that which make the morning a bit more peaceful and stop me feeling so much of a doormat to everyone's needs! As the weeks pass I can see more and more how I acted both as a wife and how I act still as a mother are driven by a fear of other people's anger. I hope to carry on working on that - small steps but progress is being made.
I spent most of this morning getting muddy in the park with the dog. Ran into a friend and had a brief chat, which was nice. I'm going to do my reading now (one of my goals) and this afternoon I will work and do some life admin. I hate doing life admin. Very boring. But needs must.
