Keeping with my theme of self analysis and honesty.
When EX is being plesant and chatty i find myself easily chatting back. Always about S4. All these convos have an air of false niceness from both of us. She uses "hah" "haha" and "lol" freakishly often in convo. She never used tobdo this. Makes it feel very fake.
That being said. Here is my point of analysis. I have very mixed feelings during these convos. Happy to be amiable but they do feel very fake. Like shes trying to lull me into false security or keep me in good graces for some reason. Its all too sugary to e genuine. I know what she sounds like when shes being nice. Maybe i only ever knew the fabricated niceness in the past and now this deliberately sweet crap rings as very false to me. However when we go weeks without talking it bothers me.
Why do you think this is?
I know the "dont try to figure it out" lines are coming.
This is an excersize in self learning. Why do i think this way, how to change it? Etc.
M: 35, EX-W: 3, S:4 All Divorce Proceedings Complete - Oct 18 ----------------------------------------------------- 2nd EX - Was Engaged - Diagnosed BPD 2 Major breakups. 2 Rebounds
