You're dealing with a cheater who you are emotionally attached to. The more you work on detachment the more you will be able to remain strong, aware, and present in the moment when she throws her BS at you. The more you work on detachment the better you will become at ceasing your enabling behavior.
You look at her as if you have everything to lose. When you start seeing that you can be fine without her and it shows in your attitude and actions than you will see that there's nothing to lose and that the fear was all in your head.
You want respect? Look her straight in eye and tell her you know what she's up to and that she needs to gtfo. Then leave. Tough to do, I know.
H 34 W 29 BD 3/12/18 Divorce Busted Spring 19
It is not things that bother us, but the stories we tell ourselves about things.
