The aftermath - OrangeK

[OrangeK]

As much as I try to avoid getting you information, I am glad very much that I found out about this new development. I think if she had just stayed with om number one the entire time and had a long and productive relationship with him it would have been far more detrimental on my self-esteem. Having this as confirmation that it's her not me type of thing is extremely helpful in my healing process. I'm a very self-critical person and I have spent well over a year dealing with the what did I do wrong type of mindset. Seeing this kind of behavior continued, if not worse for om that it was for me makes me firmly realize that no, it was not me. No, I did not do as much wrong as I thought. No, I am not an unlovable broken waste product. I was made to feel guilty for having goals dreams and aspirations, now I can have those things all to myself, just me and S4 kicking life's ass as it should be