When she says she just looks at me like a friend with no attraction or loving feelings and doesnt think they will return, kinda killed it for me. We tried this whole process about 5 years ago, but it just keeps coming back to the same thing. I put a lot into the marriage after that, forgave her and trusted her, and she did it again. Even after the whole drug addiction (which she still says was under control.....big red flag) I still loved her and did everything to get her help. Was I hard, yes, but I have plenty of family that were addicted b4 and if you are not hard, they dont get clean. I dont have it in me to go through this whole process yet again, esp when she says she would rather work on just herself and figure out who she is, and what she wants, and then work on us if that is what she decides.
So we have multiple affairs, drug addictions, lying (big and small), MLC, and now an STD and top of everything else.
