Special circumstance with the letting her know I'd be going out rather than ask permission. Part of my control issues we're doing what I wanted previously and questioning what she did (I wonder why with 3 affairs) but I at least want to be courteous going forward that I'll be going out.
I'm curious now how she will assert her new freedom as she still sends me a text when she comes home from work.
When she asked about her ability to go out I responded she was free to do what she'd like.
But you're right. The GAL is for me. I just felt so old last night. I usually go to bed early. I like to rise early. I like to be home with my family and home on a Sunday night. So it depressed me.
These are the times that I look back on 18 months full of trying to convince her to stay, her having multiple As and trying a new technique to save our marriage.
The limbo is a killer and while I'm grateful for the time to try, there is a lot of me that wants to get going with a new house, new life, new situation.
Ultimately I want a new marriage with her.
H46 W38 M12 T15 D8,S7,S5
11/12/17 "I don't want to be married like this" A began 7/12/18 Confessed A 10/1/19 EA still happening with 2 4/23/19 "I want a D, but I want to stay until I find a job"
