180 Counterproductive?

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Thanks! She has said no to separation when its been brought up in MC. She tells me she doesnt want to, at least.

The vacation is planned for next month. She brought it up but said she wanted to "not talk about us" but since its planned to be overseas it seems like a bad idea to me in some ways. She initially had the idea a few weeks ago, then once I had the clinginess attack she reneged on it. The suffocation is definitely from my trying to start doing everything well and checking in on things before i had any idea what i was doing. Cried once, etc.

She had valid complaints with me from before all this in that I was stoic, aloof, not affectionate enough, weak, and most of all just a grumpy miserable person. I own that.