It’s been a while since I’ve posted. I’ve been surprising myself by doing a really good job at starting to detach more, and spending a lot less time around my H when he’s here with our daughter. Yesterday I went to see a house that I thought my daughter and I might move into, and I kind of spiraled afterwards, feeling really sad and depressed at the prospect of moving without H. So that was hard and sort of knocked me down a bit. Things with my H have been pretty good. We had a kind of a negative morning recently and I was starting to nosedive into emotional stuff but recovered quickly and gracefully an he actually apologized to me for his part of what had happened which was somewhat miraculous. He hasn’t brought up divorce talk in 2 weeks, and he’s def been trying to connect with me in small ways, discussing work, trying to show me some videos he thinks are funny, bringing me a bottle of wine...I don’t get it. I’m really happy that we haven’t talked about divorce in a bit, but I also feel like I’m back to limbo. I wish he would just step toward me, just a tiny bit!!!
