Wife is having an affair and wants to separate -2

[Wanted1]

Journaling...

WW picked up daughter from daycare and took D to her apartment.
Sent me a picture and video of her playing. I sent thanks after 3 hours.

Wife hasn't provided her new address, so I don't even know where my daughter is today.

My first day alone in the house and it just seems so hollow and empty. The house feels like it doesn't belong to me anymore and I am just in transit place.
Same house where my D used to run all the time, is looking dead. I went in the evening to meet a friend and came back around 8.
To keep myself busy, I started cleaning the house and kept myself busy for another two hours. Had my dinner alone (atleast yesterday, I had my D to share my dinner with).

Vik,

I remember the day my exWW left for good and had the kids at her place for the first time very vividly. It was in the beginning of January, so it wasn't that long ago. Your description of how it felt was exactly how I felt. I remember sitting in the chair in my living room and broke down knowing it would never be the same again. Our big, happy home, filled with kids laughing and playing, was eerily silent. Before, I would sometimes get after the kids for being too loud and rambunctious and I remember thinking I would give anything to have that back at the point in time.

I feel for you. I truly do. But, I will say this -- it gets so much better. That night was the only night I broke down about it. I wiped the tears, after awhile, and decided that I was strong enough to get through it and became mindful that God was sending me down a path he knew I could handle. The first week was sorrowful, but after that, I accepted the alone time. I'm going to be honest with you, more than likely you will start to enjoy your alone time. It still doesn't feel right to me to think this much less say it out loud, but I thoroughly enjoy the time I have for myself when I don't have my kids. It's almost the best of both worlds for the lack of a better phrase. I'm always super excited for the days I have them and I'm pretty much just as excited for the days I don't. You make the best of the time you spend with them and then you get that time for yourself as sort of a refresher to recharge without having all of the responsibilities that go along with parenting kids. You get to do what you want, when you want! Like I said, it still feels wrong to say, but it is the truth. It does get better. Stay strong!