(((Vik11))) So sorry you are going through this. I know it is probably of little comfort right now...because I remember feeling the way you are feeling when my H first started taking the children to his place. We had moved into our “forever home” only a year before and it felt big and empty and sad. I just wanted my life back...the future I had planned. But those feelings have faded over time and I have actually begun to appreciate my alone time. I used to spend it feeling sorry for myself and only noticing what was missing. My focus has changed. Now I see it as a chance for me to focus on me and figure out who I am outside of being my kids’ mom. I like the quiet and my time alone or, sometimes, I get out with other people and enjoy that too. I’ve made new friends who I never would have met if I was still together with my ex. I am smiling and laughing again and my children are benefitting from that. I am not living the life I had planned but I am living the life that I have and it’s a good one. You will get there too Vik. It doesn’t seem like it now but time and space really does help to heal and to see things from a new perspective. You won’t always feel the way you do today. In time, you will figure things out. (((HUGS)))