It must be a very emotional time for you. Your faith can get you through the tough days. Some people may feel that I have no business telling a LBS something like this, since I have not personally been in D shoes. This is my belief about everything in life. God will see you through the bad times. You can lean on His strength to hold you up. (((hugs)))
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!