Heading off to Prague for a 4 day break with my friend from childhood. Couldn't come at a better time really because this last week the doldrums have really set in. I think I'm just exhausted.
I commented to one son that I just felt that I needed to opt out of my life for a while. Work is stressful, the divorce, the financials, getting the house sorted, the dog etc etc.
So, a trip away will let me do just that for a few days.
I did muse last night that perhaps this 'opting out' feeling is what H had felt for a long time. Shame that his answer was to find sex elsewhere.
So, have worked my butt off sorting the house and garden and yesterday the agent came to take the photographs. We've known him for 30+ years and he's aware of the situation so was very careful and sensitive in what he was saying and doing. That was comforting and I got a big hug at the end.
Saw H at the weekend when he asked if he could pick something up. 1st contact in 3 months. It was all very pleasant and we talked about the garden. He did offer to do some heavy work but then went on to tell me how busy his life was. So, I thanked him for the offer and said I'd crack on and see how much I managed. All together, it was a comfortable exchange and I realise that is how I would like it to be in the future.
However, the financials are due next week and I am not expecting that will be plain sailing. Nor do I trust him. So the calm and pleasantness may not last for long. We'll see.
