Nef, yup, as usual, time and patience. This will be a long road ahead. I was deviating and falling off. Need to get back on track for myself and my kids. I was enjoying time with W and was caught up in the moment.
lost, hey bud, how are you? Sorry to hear you were experiencing some PTSD. Taking it day by day for sure. I need to step back and re-evaluate where I am and what I want.
AS, thanks for those words to help me get back on the right path. I know the drinking with the SIL was a bad idea when it was a few drinks in. At first it was just to enjoy a cold one and my BIL was there too but he decided not to drink and I was like ayyy, free beer.
I was enjoying the sex and thinking it didn't matter if it didn't affect my emotions and I had no expectations on R.
Going to go back to being scarce, keeping convos short and pertaining to kids or finances, and not giving in to the sex if she even initiates? Am I hearing this clearly? Guess I can do this another 8 months which will put me at 1 1/2 years...sounds about right. Let's see where this takes me on my journey.
I'm sure she will ask about the sudden change if she makes advances. Wondering what I can say to be vague or to let her know I've done some thinking and "it's probably best we don't" and leave it at that.
AS, I'm sure you're right that if I temp check her she'd BD me all over again. I don't have any interest to find out.
H 49 , W 47 T 23, M 17 S11, S5 BD: 7/18 IHS: 7/18 - 3/19 Physically Separated: 3/19-4/19 Piecing: 4/19 - Current
