I agree with what has been said here. She pays her share. Also...regarding childcare schedule...alternating weekends with various schedules during the week is the norm. There is no ways she should expect you to give up every weekend. Stand firm on that. Just cause she says she wants something, doesn’t mean you should just agree. My STBXH and I have agreed to a 2-3-2 schedule Parent 1- M-T, Parent 2 - W-Fri, Parent 1 - S-S... alternating weekly.
VIK... I know where you are at. I was there too. Trust me... things will get better as soon as you drop the rope. I never thought I would feel the way I do. Didn’t want to. I wanted my H back. I do not feel that way anymore and I am happier now than I was before BD. Trust in the process. Trust that you will be okay. Face your fears. That was the biggest thing for me... I had a lot of fears... of being alone, of no one wanting me again, financial stress, you name it... I have discovered none of those things are insurmountable and that my life is going to be what I make of it. And that part about no one wanting me again... LOL... so not the case. My dance card is full and I am loving my freedom to just live my life. You will get there too and be a better person for it. (((HUGS)))
