Re: Moving past the WAW to a stronger me Pt. 6

[Davide]

I appreciate all the support folks!

Still no word on the job front. Uncertainty... it's all good. I had a nice yoga session this morning. This weekend I have an old friend from college coming in to spend 4 nights with me. She is super low-maintenance which is good because I have no idea what we'll do, and I don't have a car to explore much. Maybe we'll rent one.

I went on a date last night, nice enough woman, in very good shape as she owns a pilates studio. She has traveled a lot on her own, and is very self-sufficient. Unfortunately, I immediately knew that we weren't a great a fit. Still, we had a fun conversation and shared a couple of beers and I learned about Pilates. My metric for a successful first date is a good conversation and meeting an interesting person, and that has served me well. There's another one tonight, so we'll see!

AS,

Thanks for chiming in. I don't feel like that is my m.o. either, it just scared me. You could certainly be right about still having walls up. I like to think that I am open to new experiences, and willing to make myself vulnerable, but perhaps that is just surface level. I would be happier believing that there was a lack of chemistry rather than that my own emotional walls blocked it because she was such a quality person.

FS,

Hahaha.... yeah, I might overthink things just a tad! Clearly I suffer at least somewhat from paralysis by analysis. That comes through here, and I'm not blind to it at all. Yoga helps a lot with that as does rock-climbing. I can and do live in the moment a good deal. When I come here I am much more reflective, so that aspect of my personality comes out more.

I don't think I am attracted to unstable necessarily. I don't even know that stability is driving me away. This particular relationship didn't feel like it was working - for me it felt like I lacked an attraction. I was just questioning whether or not there was another underlying subconscious reason.

Neffer,

Gracias de nuevo hermano! Yep. Figuring out what would make me happiest is the crux of the matter. I am fully prepared to take responsibility for my own happiness regardless of the situation. That is MUCH more crucial than where I end up.