The 'his home' position is based on a legal argument. Even though he has left I cannot deny him access to the property - he is on the deeds and it is classed as the marital home. It is a bit of a grey area tbh - I have a right to privacy in my home and he has to respect that but at the same time he has a right to come and go as he pleases.

Stupid English laws !!!

His treatment of me is better than it has been in a long time. Before it would have been five minutes of ranting, end of the world, catastrophe type b**cks. Now it is just not offering me any dinner.

He then quickly reverts to Mr Nice Guy. Water off a ducks back.

Yail - He has always watched me. Even when he was an angry alien he watched me. What made this time different was he wasn't watching me with an eye to criticise ("are you really wearing that?") or waiting until I walked away before he looked, but eyes straight to chest kind of looking. He saw me as a sexual being and he was embarrassed when he got caught.

TBH I've noticed a lot more of it lately but this was the most blatant and the only time he realised I'd caught him. I don't read anything into it other than he is a man and I am a reasonably attractive woman. The real change for me is knowing that he sees me as a woman and not the enemy.

Day 3 of FS Initiative

WFH as kids still on hols. Took them out to lunch and now home 'supposedly' working. D9 is downstairs doing a craft activity with our nanny and D12 is watching the Vampire Diaries on telly.

I have invited some of the kids from D9's class to do an easter egg hunt here on friday. D9 and D12 have been excitedly planning the day. We will need to prepare the garden Friday morning, make sandwiches, bake/buy cakes and such for an afternoon tea. I am looking forward to preparing for the hunt with my girls almost as much as I am looking forward to hosting it. Perhaps even more.

I have also planned a long weekend to Brighton one of the bank holidays in May. The Brighton Fringe Festival is on and there are lots of activities for the children so it should be fun.

On the H front ...

H is working today but has asked if he can pick the girls up after football training tonight and bring them back here. He will probably have a cup of tea, spend 20 mins with them, and then head back to his flat. He will then be back at 8 in the morning to watch the girls until 3 (when he has to go to work again). I sometimes wonder why he has a flat at all.

Not much else to be honest. Still feeling pretty positive overall.


W40 (me), H40
M14, Together 16
D12, D9

BD Oct 17
Moved out Mar 18