Journaling here a bit because it's somewhat cathartic....Long, long post and I don't expect anyone to read it all but it's helpful to get some thoughts out.
Always helps getiing it out of your head. I skimmed it. Let us know if we can help.
"What is best for my kids is best for me" Amor Fati Link to quotes: https://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=2879712