Hope - not sure it's a sign that we are on our way to R. Just a thawing and a possibility that he is coming out of the fog. I suspect he made a lot of 'bad' decisions (and I realise that's a judgement call) whilst he was in the fog and he has to be willing to own those decisions before he will have the humility to come back. It is in his nature to externalise blame, so the chances of him facing those decisions and then forgiving himself are quite slim.
DV - I remember a letter you sent him, ending with "this is me, letting you go". I remember the sadness in it and an utter sense of defeat. Now your happiness resonates with every word you type. I don't think you've written about your H for the longest time. Look how far you've come !!!.
The new normal is a better place than the old normal ... I am taking back control (in small ways) of my life. One step in front of the other until I have the strength and willingness to run, right?
