Thanks everyone. I went and saw my mental health doc today. Ever since BD I have been having difficulties sleeping. Unfortunately it brought up a lot of abandonment issues and other issues from childhood.

I got a script to help me out. Sleep was really the only area I have been struggling. Very very anxious to get the funds I am expecting this week so I can get out.

It feels like WW is trying to cause it to be hard for me to move out. She tries to control me still. Still demands things and cant for the life of her be nice and ask.

She hasnt changed one bit for the better. She has fully embraced the "I think you should be doing something but I wont ask you to do it, so you better read my mind or I will get mad when you dont do it " mentality.

I just brush it off now. I cant count how many times I have asked her to leave me alone. I try and validate when I can, but I refuse to validate when shes just putting me down. I dont argue back or try and change her mind, I simply ask that she leave me alone.

She simply cant do it. So the only way I can get it to stop, at least mostly stop in person, is to move.

We went to dinner together for the firtmst time in a while for S12s bday. I had a blast with the kids. I was very happy chit chatting with all of them. My kids had a long up beat conversation at the table about how well I will do once I kove out and that they are happy to see me so happy.


I thought I was going to burst into flames from how WW was evil eyeing me lol. She just looked sad at dinner. She always looks sad now.

S12 says when she is at home with him and its just them, she ignores him and talks to OM on the phone the entire time. That bothers me a lot. When I am home with the kids my full attention is on them.


M:16
T:21
H(me) 38
WW: 38
S11 D16 D19
Red Flags of A: March 2018
ILYBNILWY: August 4, 2018
Moved out of MBR: September 24, 2018
BD/Confirmation of A: October 31, 2018
D Filed: March 27, 2019