Ok, so you talked about control earlier Alison. I’m taking control. I’m pulling myself together again, and moving forward. First up: I’m going to give up wine for at least a few months. Wine doesn’t play well with my hormones, it destroys my already fragile sleep, and it makes me behave in ways I regret. Like yesterday. I considered giving up all alcohol but actually I don’t over drink when I have beer. 2 pints and that’s my limit, and it doesn’t make me maudlin. So that’s step 1. Step 2: focus on work, I’ve slipped a bit since my last big deadline but I have a lot to do. And it’ll take my mind off dh. Step 3: 5 minutes of daily yoga. I did this when dh first left and it was very useful. Step 4: make myself a list of steps to follow when I’m triggered, when I feel the need to contact dh, when I steer towards R talk. Step 5: more socialising. But not too much! I feel better already. I’ll start with yoga and a run after breakfast and I will get started on working. Dilly 2.0 is incoming, positive and in charge.
