Settling In (LB55 Thread 3)

[LB55]

Just a quick update. Went back to court, have temp orders now, but I filed a motion to amend them because it’s been so long since the hearing that things have changed a lot financially. So we will be going back again Friday. Her lawyer refused to amend them before filing, claiming that was against the law. It is t but he wouldn’t budge.

W continues to yo-yo between reasonable bordering on nice and raging crazy wants to see me dead so she can take mylife insurance lady. One thing that is consistent day to day...this is my fault. It’s my fault that we have to get divorced, it’s my fault the kids are upset, it’s my fault she needs more money, etc.

It’s even my fault that my son struck out in a baseball game last week. He struck out because of how I was sitting in the stands. Evidently I was sitting in a mean way and it distracted him so much that he struck out. That’s what W told me anyway. How does she come up with this stuff?

I am trying to move forward, this whole thing still makes me angry. Not everyday, but some days. Yesterday and today I’m prettyworked up about the whole thing. My life is stressful as it is, especially at work, and now adding in home, family, kids, money, and divorce stress, it’s tough to see the light at the end of the tunnel and that fear of the unknown is upsetting. Working to detach but she is playing war with me and using the kids as pawns in it. I refuse to fight back in that way but it’s upsetting.

Not much else to report, will update after the amendment hearing on Friday.